So little Stella is sick.
All signs point to a lymphoma and as I wait for blood tests and new appointments, I can do nothing except obsessively Google for alternative medicines (found some!)
and pray.
and work.
I am committed to my "summer of fun", but right now things feel a little less "fun" and whole lot more serious. Still, I no longer allow single events to define who I am, and as I navigate the next few days/weeks/months,
I will just be living in the moment.
I was going to participate in Troll's newest culinary throw down, but I lost track this week with Stella and work and just realized it was today.
Right now I need to decide the best course of action for my dog. Do I proceed with treatments? Allow nature to take its course? Try alternative medicine?
I'll probably do them all as long as Stella's quality of life remains good.
So perhaps my "Summer of Fun" is really more
The Summer of Love,
Love for my family, my friends and my animals,
and that's something I can look forward to.
xoxoxo.
22 Comments:
summer of love is a good plan. i know well the obsessive google search. i found lots of support on the blind dog forum when Trout was diagnosed with glaucoma. i was lucky. i caught it early. and you are too. stella is older and you caught it in time to make her comfortable and to give her life. no matter what those dogs of yours live like KINGS "lady" grhherhaha. and as your shop critters they have a very full day of action and people. so. youre not to worry. youre all right right now. breathe.
Good Lord...sometimes I think we should clear our worlds of creatures we love, if only to avoid the inevitable pain...but then, what use is life alone?
You’ll do the right thing all along the way, just as you have in the past.
My prayers are with you. I know all about the appointments, alternative medicines, and feeling overwhelmed. I love the summer of love. Take care of you and your loved ones and I have to believe all else will fall into place. xoxoxoxoxoxo
Have a good weekend...
this is why you're one of my absolute most favorite people in the whole blogosphere, sugarpie! the summer of love is such a grand way to look at all that's going on in your life....to take this time and revel in all the positives. i'm here, we're here for you! xoxox
Ohhhh. I'm so sorry Stella is ill. I believe in trying all treatments, too. Our animals are our kids. I send you love and support, one dog-mom to another.
Hang in there, give the little hound tons of Summer Lovin'. Although I'm trying to imagine how much more spoiled she could be? Foie Gras Vienna Sausages?
TROLL DID pick a bad day. I can't post my Cullinary Challenge until Monday.
I'm back. I'm terribly sorry to hear about your Stella. I believe in alternative medicines, and I hope you find one that works for you. Good for you for keeping your chin up, and just remember we are all here to lend our virtual shoulder and give virtual hugs.
xoxo
K9 - I am all right now. :-) Thanks for this comment and the "mantra". I'm oddly peaceful. At least I can afford to take her to the fancy vet. Not a lot of people can do that. I also won't do anything that doesn't honor HER, so I'm not going to keep her alive if she's in pain/etc. That would be selfish. xxoxo.
Gnome - funny, but that's just what I said to my brother last night. He had three aging pets that all died within 12 months and we both said at the end of the conversation that despite the heart ache of losing them.... for me not to have animals would be telling me not to breathe. Thanks for the comment and confidence. Always appreciated.
Skipper - I know you know a lot about this subject, and not just with animals. I plan to have a great weekend, because the alternative would be a waste of precious time. Thanks for being here.
Savannah - thanks!!! In the past, I've become consumed with the negative and I'm resigned to not go down that road right now. If nothing else, this past year has taught me, life is to be lived. xoxox.
Wendy - I thought about not saying anything here, but I realized this morning.... you all mean a lot to me and I needed the support. Thanks.I hope you have a great week with Chillpaw.
Shamu - I could give her the fur to sleep in? I actually take a great deal of comfort knowing that dog was saved from a crappy life and given to me as a gift. xoxo.
Heff - Why did I think the 10th was next week???
Kmwathy - you've been missed! And thanks for the kind words and support. I'm feeling hopeful and as K9 told me "I'm all right this minute" and that's a good thing. I'm glad you're back.
How do you feel about your vet? maybe get a second opinion? Bear & I send you & Stella good puppy energy.
Brad - I love my vet, love/love, but will move up to the fancy hospital in Lynnwood where they have an oncologist. (I never thought I'd say THAT.) AND, I've called a holistic vet and will take her to see them also. Thanks for the good energy from you and Bear. It's appreciated.
I understand. You can enter Saturday or Sunday, if you want.
Definately picked a bad day.
Aw hell. To the nth degree.
{{hugs}}
I have seen some serious miracles with animals recovering from cancer, a "fatal" oil spill (my kitty).. these pets that would have otherwise died if their parents didn't love them.
You're a good pet mama.
My thoughts are with you!
The heart's a muscle, friend, and yours sure is getting a good workout these days. Hugs to you and little Stella. We'd all be so lucky to come back as one of your beloved critters :o).
Just do whatever you need to do to make sure that Stella knows she's got a great cornerman, er, woman who loves her and will stay with her even beyond the sound of the bell.
It's her fight, kiddo. just make sure she's taped well and laced up tightly.
Troll - thanks. Real life always trumps blog life.
Ree - exactly. thanks. xoxo.
Kelly Jene - nice to see you around the blogs and thanks for the encouraging words. I'd take a miracle right now.
Moi - it's one of those years, you know? Jeeze. Thanks for the support pal.
NYD - your comment made me cry, but not in a bad way. I agree. We got bad news last night that she has an acute case and I'll be spending the next few days/week getting more information... but in the end it's not about MY pain, it's about making sure she leaves me at the best time for her. I'm not sure if I can put her through treatments. I also can't fathom losing her without a fight..... so yes, I'll make sure she's taped well and laced up tightly. Thanks.
summer of love--thas' best medicine of all.
So sory Sugar. Hate this fer ya'.
Bless you Aunty - you're on your own journey right now and I hope you and yours and doing ok.
I wish I had an answer for you about your dog. Rest assured that whatever I recommend, you should do the exact opposite. That seems to be the way it works for just about everything else ;-)
Native - just leaving a comment helps. Thanks.
Hugs to you.
And your little doggie too.
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